Tattoo on an arm saying the latin phrase non serviam

I was raised in a family where my father was the law, the controller and the punisher.

Incapable of showing any love, he often pretended submission and, oddly enough, at the same time required to be treated with devotion.

It was just another way of making me submit, yet more cruel because of the humiliation involved.

When you have been beaten until your mother steps in front of you so that he can't physically get to you and you have to kiss him goodnight, you just feel every word you're forced to say is another punch.

As far as I can recall, my aversion for any kind of authority started back then.

He wanted me to be the typical "normal" person who never steps out of line, but he didn't raise me as one.

I grew up making good and bad decisions, but always tried to escape any control.

Many - I'd say the majority - of the bad decisions were just a way to oppose to him and elude his power.

I just couldn't obey for the sake of some kind of superior order, I felt almost physically ill every time I had to.

Then one day I read the quote: "Non serviam", I will not serve, which is attributed to Lucifer when he refused to serve God in Heaven.

That quote spoke to me in the strongest way, it meant rejecting serving and being firm until the last consequences. It meant freedom.

Sometimes it would be easier to compromise, but building your own life, as a person and an artist, with that phrase in mind, gives you the possibility of knowing you're living it just the way you want it to be.

written by s


A tattoo on an ankle which has roman numerals spelling out a date

I’m covered in tattoos and none of them really mean much.

I guess they’re decorative, it’s often a question that women will ask me: “What do your tattoos mean?” A lot of the time by this stage in the conversation I just don’t care, priorities are shifting.

Anyway, I’m covered in tattoos and maybe a handful of them mean something.

One sits on my left ankle, it’s a date in roman numerals VIII · V · MMXII.

I’ll look at it often, but weirdly it’s a date I’ll tend to forget. It's odd really as it’s the day everything changed.

It marked a turning point in my life.

It’s really taught me that everyone is capable of change, we’ve all got it in us. Sometimes we just need a little help. I certainly did and I still do one day at a time.

On a good day looking at this tattoo will fill me with gratitude and on a bad day it just reminds me why I shouldn’t revisit my old way of life.

I got the tattoo added onto the end of a session as we had a bit of time left. An afterthought I suppose. It’s odd how it’s become perhaps the most significant section of my skin.

Aesthetically I love the simplicity of the tattoo and the questions it asks the viewer.

written by bobbie


Updated: Jul 27, 2020

tattoo of an eagle covering a chest

Well, tattoos for me go beyond simply ink on skin.

A tattoo is the birthmark that life forgot to stamp on my skin.

A tattoo is the painting I decided not to hang on the wall but rather to print on my skin, so that anybody wherever I go might come to see it.

I always say: I have carved into my skin what I have lived.

All my tattoos have their meanings, they have a story, a purpose, nothing was random.

Through my tattoos I express the message, the stories I carry with me.

And I still have a lot of story to carve, to print on my skin.

written by josafa