I wanted to bleed...

My skin art was a punishment.

I wanted to hurt. I wanted to actually feel something. I wanted to bleed.

I hate needles. Needles have been a constant in my nightmares since childhood. Even as a heroin addict I could not watch people use needles. Needless to say I was a bit of a shit smackhead.

I got tattoos when drugs were taken from me.

I got tattoos when you were taken from me. You can only sleep inside my dreams.

I got tattoos when I stopped crying.

I got tattoos to feel the guilt of abandoning you forever.

I got tattoos to never forget you.

My tattoos mean my blood and skin are now scarred with love.

written by shelley